tapi..
kenapa esok skolah.
kenapa sekarang tgh cycle TB? ugh!
kenapa sekali sekala yg main seronok2 ni pun nak kene bengkak sane sini. adoi?!~
kenapa mcm byk benda yg berlaku.
kenapa rase mcm masa lambat berjalan ni ha.
kenapa rase mcm nk menyerah kalah je. @_@
kenapa byk soalan ni.
kenapa rase mcm seronok gila, tapi tak seronok gila..haha..sebab gila kot.
kenapa rase macam2 ni..haha
nak tdo. huh.
29.11.09
weekend yg seronok gila kot.
Posted by amilahasiefah at 10:59 PM 2 comments
sa(ha)ja.
alhamdulillah...majlis makan2 raya aidiladha dgn juniors bejalan lancar malam tadi. dgn bersahaja sy nak letak gamba2 di sini. terima kasih sume yg masak, yg datang. SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA. :) utk gamba2 lanjut dan gamba2 raya kat embassy semalam tgk kat fb aje lah ye..hehe
sila click pada gamba for larger view. :)
terima kasih sangat2 pada kawan2 and juniors yg comey2 belaka.majlis kita meriah sekali. hiks~
and..dengan bersahaja jugak, nak share lagu "haven't met you yet" by michael buble. takdek kaitan dgn raya haji ye.. ^^
I'm Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.
I Tried So Very Hard Not To Lose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility
And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing
And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life
And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility
And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right
And We'll Be United
And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility
And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get
Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get
I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
click sini utk video.
> okay. need my beauty sleep. lama dah tak tdo awal. ^^ tak awal dah pun, dah almost 0130. ;p
> wish our team the best of luck for tomorrow's games..haha GO GO TEAM BOM BOM!! lol
> antara makna doa selepas solat yg kita selalu baca. dgn bersahaja sy nak share. :)
"Ya Allah, ya Tuhan kami, hidupkan kami dengan iman, matikan kami dengan iman, serta masukkan kami ke dalam syurga bersama-sama iman. Ya Allah, ya Tuhan kami, janganlah kiranya Kau pesongkan hati-hati kami, setelah Kau kurniakan kepada kami petunjuk. Anugerahilah kami rahmat dari sisiMu, sesungguhnya Kau Maha Pengurnia. Wahai Tuhan kami, kurniakanlah kepada kami kebaikan di dunia dan juga di akhirat, dan peliharalah kami dari azab api neraka". ameen~
Posted by amilahasiefah at 12:16 AM 1 comments
28.11.09
the right thing to do
fall slowly.....or hold back?
do you know what is the right thing to do? each time you do something, how much do you give a damn about whether or not that thing is the thing you should or shouldn't do? or you never really cared of the consequences of the things that you have done?
you know what they say, if something you did was the right thing to do, your heart will come to ease.
so, if what u did or if any of your decisions made yourself or your heart feels sad,
WAS IT REALLY THE RIGHT THING TO DO?
then, there's this thing called SACRIFICE. how do we really know when is the right time to make sacrifices? and when is the time that we really really need to put ourselves as our number 1 priority rather than thinking about others first? (in other words, being selfish).
and..who understands those words anyways.. they are so BIG, so big that sometimes people run away from them. love and sacrifice...they are sooo big that sometimes people THINK they know the MEANINGS but in REALITY the DON'T. love and sacrifice. even worse, not all of us believe in these words..me? at this moment, i really don't know what to and what not to believe.really.
and you know..SINCERITY and HONESTY..who are we to judge the people around us and be sure that someone is sincere and honest or the other way around? i used to think that it doesn't matter if other people are not sincere and honest as long as i know that i am sincere and honest with myself and with others..and, apparently i am not sincere and honest enough la kot, since it only brings me this 'far'?
you know what else they say,, honesty is the best policy.. :)
ah, I just wanna be NORMAL.but, who can really define what normal is anywayss???
I don't wanna have TRUST ISSUES, i don't wanna just DREAM, i don't wanna get and give FALSE HOPES.... okay..i need to be PATIENT!!! fuhhhhhh *breathing in deep*
okay..that's enough for now..i don't know why this entry is in english..(excuse my not so canggih & not so betul english kay?)
Dear friend,
I just need some more time for myself. and I want to give YOU all the time you need too.
even though sometimes I sooo wanna be selfish and try win YOU, I don't think that is the right thing to do either..so, I wasn't lying to YOU when I said I really don't know what to do. and we both know, the past has been affecting us in lots lots and lots of ways..I just know that, I am thankful that YOU found me, and it was a pleasure knowing YOU. and it has been AMAZING. and I know you said YOU are not going anywhere, but the ugly truth is, we don't know the future.. the future is not in our hands..we both know the drill.."usaha+doa+tawakkal"..but hey, whatever happens in the future...just remember to be thankful to Allah for He and only He knows what is BEST for us.
and I am afraid to lose the people I love.
and I am afraid if I were to be totally honest with you, that I'd lose you.
and I know this can be very hard, but I will try my best to make it easier for you.
and I wanna deny everything as much as I wanna confess everything.
and I am gonna miss you, my friend.
and I am sad since that moment we decided THIS.
so, I am not sure what is going on.haha.
and I am just a girl, and YES, I think too much.
and YES, I can write so many things about this. but I have to stop.
whatever weyhh. haha. I'm strong. I'll get through this.
byebye peepz. thanx for reading. lol.
Posted by amilahasiefah at 11:59 AM 2 comments
25.11.09
memang tak faham.
kadangkadang memang tak mahu & tak ingin faham.
kenapa?
kenapa?
kenapa?
Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku termasuk dalam golongan hambahambaMu yg bersabar. ameen.
...
Posted by amilahasiefah at 7:53 PM 0 comments
24.11.09
rindu amat2 sgt.
missing home so damn much.



syasya, nanan n zawwa yg comot! dtgla lawat aunty kat siniiii..hehehe..suh tokba n tok 'a antar, okay? takpun nanti masa aunty joy nk dtg jumpa aunty cfah winter break satgi, masuk dalam beg dia! bole? ah, rindu gila!! korang rindu kat aunty jugak kan? hahaha.. ;p
@ syasya: gi skolah jgn comot2! ke dah cuti skolah tah? dtg umah tok 'a nnt call aunty cfah tau!
@ nanan: jgn lupa gocok gigi ye..hehehe..
@ zara: cepat la tumbuh rambut panjang! get well soon.. :)
2) miss mama. the grapefruits. the flowers outside. her orchids, her collection of exotic flowers (ckp je exotic sbb tatau nama depa..lol), mama's shoulder, mama's lap....mama's nasik lemak. mama's rendang. mama's everything. ahaha..gedik.
3) miss baba. baba, kawan cfah tanya "bila bapak kau nk pencen betul2?"see..org luar pun nampak u r working soo hard! haih..tak kesian ke kat diri sendiri ba? hehe..i know u r doing this for us. thanx so much tak terhingga. takde apa yg kitorang bole buat yg setimpal utk balas jasa ma & ba..i miss u tho..lama gila tak borak2 hal kita. haha.
4) @amal, joy, nuha and amad: miss all of you! @my dearest sissieesss: lama tak lepak sama!! ;p @amad: jgn nakal2! dngar ckp maba! isk3 @amal: dtg la siniiii!!! @nuha: jaga diri baik2. ada rezeki jmpa bila2. ;p @joy: jumpa lagi sebulan, insyaAllah! :)
5) tak lupa juga pada semua yg lain..abg, kak yana, abg megat: BELANJA LA CFAH YE! :)
6) and BIBIK too. haha. bik, tolong rearrange bilik ni jom..boring dah eihh~ lol
7) and semua kekawan yang x berada di depan mata. jauh di mata, dekat di hati. >.<
semoga masa cepat berlalu sbelum bertemu kalian, dan lambat berlalu ketika bersama kalian. ^_^ sekian.
Posted by amilahasiefah at 2:07 AM 3 comments
17.11.09
white peace.
^_^
monday morning.
hujung october hari tu dah ada snow turun. pastu it stopped. 16th november selalu jadi indicator utk sy and some of my friends, hari bila mana, snow akan mula turun. sebabnye, mase first year, snow turun when it was aainaa's 18th birthday (16th november 2004). that's about it. and there's this thingy about moscow's crazy unrealistic delusional mayor yang hari tu ada cakap dia nak buat moscow x de snow this year..i know, rite?? ape hak die nak ubah lumrah alam?? huhu..I LOVE SNOW!! dont take the snow away la Mr. Mayor!chaisshh~
[IN YOUR FACE MOSCOW MAYOR!!! <--- kata2 seorang kawan tatkala snow turun late october ari tu. belagak lagi..mcm bagus je! huhu] read more about this, here. hehe..and sebab tu la i felt so extremely happy this morning when i stepped outside :) :) and the thought of leaving moscow in a few months, makes me appreciate the snow more. whoa~~
unlike some people yang confident gila they wont miss anything about moscow, the moscow winter is REALLY one of the MANY things i will miss later..surely absolutely 100% positive! ye la, memanglah winter itu gloomy, tidak membawa mood ceria, hehe..but i like it. ia menenangkan jiwa. ia senyap. tenteram. aman. damai. hee~ ;p
winter.
i think..i love..the..atmosphere. it makes my heart sing love songs (since i cant really sing, maybe i only hummm) haha. it makes my soul smile and cry the river of happiness and thankfulness at the same time. it makes my mind think of Him. it makes me feel more grateful to Allah. for whatever He has given me, for everything. thank You. =.=
tapi, you know, i totally understand why some people hate winter so much. sebab saya pun selalu complain sebab its very dull, kotor, comot, basah etc etc etc.. paling x best for me is when there are times, the dullness gets into me, reminds me of the sad memories in the past..haha in other words, simply leceh, tiring & depressing. but it also teaches us to be a stronger person, inside and out. lagi2 pula sebab kat sini snow and ice selalunye sepanjang2 winter (ataupun sampai lebih dari winter kot)..so..awal2 ni la time die cantik. nanti ujung2 mase dah cair sume..erghh..mmg comot. macam pagi tadi..uhuhuu..i hv selected the wrong pair of shoes, the wrong winter coat..hmm..but still happy! hehe (bangun lambat, x sempat check kat laptop cuaca hari ni..and x sempat tgk luar bfore turun..huhu)
so people, i am just gonna enjoy my last winter ever here! insyaAllah. :)
birthday wish.
jom jalan2 lagi! lagi sebulan seminggu je~~~ hiks.
luv you, babe!
sekian.
you feel so lost, that you are so alone,
all you see is night and darkness all around,
you feel so helpless, you can't see which way to go.....
Don't despair and never lose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
InsyaAllah
InsyaAllah you'll find your way
-Maher Zain, insyaAllah-
Posted by amilahasiefah at 12:45 AM 2 comments
14.11.09
playing surgeons.
hari ni ade pengalaman baru. iaitu menonton surgery yg dipanggil whipple procedure.
whipple procedure merupakan sejenis operation, yg biasa dilakukan sebagai treatment kepada pesakit2 pancreatic cancer (ketumbuhan/kanser kelenjar pankreas). maklumlah, sekarang cycle oncology (the study of cancer)..belajar pasal cancers everyday. so, basically, operation ni, nama lainnye ialah pancreaticoduodenectomy..dalam erti kata lain, the pancreas yg ada cancer tu dan duodenum dipotong. emm..ah, malas la nak cerite. haha..sape yg nk tau, bole google sendiri or click sini..


okay..lari tajuk sikit..snanye bukan nak cerite about the surgery pun..just nak letak gamba yg diambil bfore masuk operation theatre je..hehe.. :)

nabilah, me, anett.x tgk sampai habis pun. sbb nak balik. kaki lenguh kot..kagum dgn all 3 surgeons yg sudah agak tua~x sakit ke lutut dorangg?? huhu
okay, disebabkan x larat nak diri lama2, i dont think i am gonna be a surgeon in the future. other than that, sebab mmg dah ada minat ke lain (kot). haha. lenguh shopping tak pe pulak kan? ;p tapi serious..lenguh gila..sebab the night before macam agak kurang tidur, lpas tu hospital onco tu jauh, lpas tu bediri x buat ape 2 jam, balik2..fuhhh..mmg x larat la..lpas solat magrib terus baring. flat.....lawak gila..kalau jadi doctor nnt macamane la agaknye..adoii~hehe
doa saja.
m(^_^)m
insyaAllah BOLEH! :)))
okay, sekian. tata.
Posted by amilahasiefah at 12:24 AM 2 comments
12.11.09
12 again.
(ikut la pukul berapa and kat mane korang berade time singgah blog ni)
lifehouse - dah lama x denga
twilight - sy suka
saje nak poyo. mcm selalu. hehe. :)
She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
Yeah, I'm crazy for this girl
She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
As she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she'll figure out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl
Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
As she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl
lagi best kalo tuka yg berikut.
she --> he
her --> him
girl --> boy/guy/man
bahaha.sekian.
perangai mcm umo 12.
*peace*
Posted by amilahasiefah at 12:05 AM 1 comments
9.11.09
onco cycle - first day
first day - not so good..ngntuk sgt. tido still x betul. and lectures in russian memang la sgt x membantu menambah kesegaran, malah memburukkan keadaan, combine dgn russian students, even worse..the girls sitting next to me were talking non-stop sambil selak2 magazine...i was like sooo redha..huhu.. but that was for the first part of the lecture la..
tah ape i copied pun i dunno. lol
lpas tu the second part mmg i cudnt focus at all.. T_T
the third part, lecture pasal breast cancer..terus segar. lol. x lah, bukan sebab the topic, but sebab mase break tu solat zohor...so macam tersegar dgn wudhu'. :) so..tu lah die..
semoge hari2 yg mendatang lebih baik dari hari ini. *semoga*ameen*
kene study balik material tadi, and tdo cukup2. bahahaa..
......................................................
kepada yg x kenal, ini nur hazirah rahman; zira, she's a dear friend of mine from jasin. i just got informed that she's still in the ICU, and she's critical.it sounds so bad, dan sy risau gilaa :( i wish i can go visit her there, in germany..tolong sama-sama doakan dia ye..
zira, i know u r strong! stay strong k! hang in there.
semoga kau tabah hadapi ujian ni, sembuh cepat.
we love you, dear.
seriously, YOU BETTER GET WELL SOON tau :(
Ya Allah, Kau sembuhkanlah zira dari sakitnye ni. Kau permudahkanlah bagi dirinya.
ameen.
God does not burden a person beyond his capacity. [It is His law that] he alone will get what it earned and he alone will pay for what he did – Lord, take us not to task if we forget or lapse into error, and Lord, do not lay on us a burden such as You laid on those before us.And Lord, do not burden us with what we cannot bear.And pardon us, and forgive us our sins, and have mercy upon us. You alone are our Lord and help us against these disbelievers [who are confronting us as enemies].” [2(Al-baqarah):285-286]
Posted by amilahasiefah at 7:13 PM 0 comments
aku pelangi tak memberi warna di hidupmu
aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
aku lah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan"
kertas- kekasih yang tak dianggap
^_^
Posted by amilahasiefah at 7:01 AM 0 comments
4.11.09
4th Nov 2009
H.A.P.P.Y B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y
selamat ulangtahun kelahiran buat ayahanda tercinta, mohd amin bin mohd soom.
and to my dearest friend miss mastura mustafa kamal.
semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki.
semoga sentiasa di bawah lindungan Allah.
semoga sentiasa diberkati, dirahmati dan dikasihiNya.
semoga berbahagia, di dunia dan di akhirat.
ameen~
baba..
thanx so much for everything. u r the best! :D
wish i can be there with u guys. *sobs*
rindu maba so much. n semua org kat umah.hehe
i love you so much daddy!! :)
Posted by amilahasiefah at 2:18 PM 0 comments
3.11.09
harapan, impian dan cita cita
harapan saya. ^_^
sekarang, harapan2 sy masih menggunung tinggi. dan rasenye gunung2 itu akan makin tinggi. hehe terbukti setakat ni, bile dah makin besar, dewasa, matang, harapan-harapan sy pun menjadi lagi besar, dewasa dan matang. kalau boleh nak mengubah dunia, jadikan dunia ni tempat yg aman, selesa utk semua org nak hidup. takde penindasan, takde peperangan, takde persengketaan..hak asasi manusia terpelihara. walaubagaimanapun, harapan terhadap diri sendiri juga masih amat besar. cuma, tidak lagi semata2 utk diri sendiri. kali ni, mengharapkan diri sendiri menjadi lebih baik, dalam segala segi, bukan saje utk keselesaan hidup diri sendiri, bahkan juge utk semua insan dan makhluk lain, utk agama, bangsa, negara...bukan utk menunjuk2, tapi utk jadi bekal utk mase akan datang, baik di dunia, mahupun akhirat. lebih2 lagi akhirat.
selalu terdetik dalam hati ni, mengharapkan org2 sekeliling lebih memahami, lebih bersabar, lebih prihatin, lebih menyayangi, lebih mudah memaafkan, lebih bertoleransi, lebih lemah lembut, lebih berhikmah, lebih sensitif, lebih rendah diri, lebih mesra, lebih ikhlas, lebih ringan tulang, lebih bertanggungjawab..
setiap kali tu jugak, diri sendiri ni dievaluasi. muhasabah. maka, sedarlah diri ini, bahawasanya, masih banyak yg perlu dibaiki. menyedari hakikat itu, tahulah bahawa, tiada siapa antara kita yg sempurna. yg ada hanyalah manusia2 yg cuba mendekati kesempurnaan. tapi, dalam masa yg sama, tak salah sikit pun kalau sama2 diajak org2 di sekeliling menuju kebaikan. ikhlas ataupun tidak seseorang itu menyeru kebaikan, tak perlulah kite nilai, Dia lah yg Maha Mengetahui hati-hati hambaNya. yang penting, hati sendiri yg perlu diikhlaskan, supaye mudah baiki diri, jadikan hidup ni semata2 mencari redhaNya, bukannye redha manusia.
memang betul, tak semua orang yg berilmu mampu menyampaikan ilmunya kepada org lain dgn baik. sehingga ramai yg menolak penyampaiannya. ade pulak, org yg kurang berilmu, tapi sgt pandai berbicara. dalam usrah gabungan smalam [terima kasih atas pengisian2 yg disampaikan, sy suka :))], ade diingatkan dalam 16(An-Nahl:)125, yg bermaksud:
ilmu, cara menyampaikan, semuanya boleh dipelajari. kalau hati kita mahukan kebaikan, nak dekati Allah, nak mendalami ilmu2 agama dgn ikhlas, insyaAllah, jalan tu akan Dia mudahkan. :)
impian dan cita-cita utk hidup selamat di dunia dan akhirat. semoga kita semua tak jemu berusaha mencari jalan menuju kebahagiaan yg kekal abadi di sana.
buat renungan bersama...
Sabda rasulullah s.a.w.:
Barangsiapa diantara kamu melihat kemungkaran, maka hendaklah dia mengubahnya dengan tangannya. Jika sekiranya dia tiada berkuasa, maka hendaklah mengubahnya dengan lidahnya. Jika sekirannya tiada berkuasa juga, maka hendaklah dia mengubahnya dengan hatinya. Dan yang demikian itu (mengubah dengan hati) adalah selemah-lemah iman. (Muslim)
Doa yg baginda Muhammad s.a.w ajar:
Ya Haiyyu, Ya Qayyum, dengan rahmatMu daku memohon pertolongan. Baikilah seluruh urusanku, dan janganlah Engkau serahkan diriku ini kepadaku walaupun sekelip mata.(Riwayat al-Nasai, dinilai sahih oleh al-Albani)
Doa dijauhkan dari syirik dalam sedar, ataupun tidak.
O Allah! We seek refuge in You from associating anything other with you while we know it, and
we seek repentunse for associating something other with you while we don’t know it.
3(Ali-Imran):31
Say (Oh, Muhammad): "If ye do love Allah, Follow me: Allah will love you And forgive you your sins; For Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful."
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